There is a cliche that if you let something go free, it will return to you if it was meant to be - or some similar rhyme. I was just going to update this entry with the news that my friend e-mailed to ask if I wanted to get together next week. Before starting this though, I re-read what I wrote. It didn't quite come out as I meant. First, I did not mean that I was writing her off just that I wasn't going to put an emotional importance on a potential friendship. I'm just not going about things the right way. I was looking for validation in the actions of others while I still don't have my own actions under control, ie making calls, writing notes, remembering birthdays and anniversaries. I realized that I'm searching for a soul-mate of sorts and I have to stop searching and start growing. If I'm meant to have that kind of relationship it will come only after I've got myself right. It's that whole annoying self-help attitude of you gotta love yourself first.
Second, it sort of sounded like I feel I am purposely excluded from the evening social activities she does participate in and that is not what I meant either. She has another social circle that she participates in more actively than the one that I am also part of which is pretty active. I was not saying she should be inviting me to everything just that our kid-free activities are not overlapping. Overuse of the word "active" not withstanding, am I being more clear? Daytime wise, it is hard because of proximity (lack of proximity) and kids - that's just the unfortunate way things work for mothers. Anyhow, we'll see how our kids play together - that makes a difference in daytime interactions.
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