Which came fist, the action or the thought?

Admittedly, this blog has been pretty whiny so far. Which was the point, initially. I wanted an outlet for all the crap I was feeling. I didn't want to spout it to my friends and family and I didn't want to hold it in. During breakfast this morning, I checked out Craftzine's Blog, which I hadn't looked at in a while. On there I found a post taken from Bakerella's blog. She does really cute things that I will be making my own versions of soon. She's inspired me because she's not a professional - she took her first cake decorating class not too long ago - and therefore not intimidating. This got me to thinking about my blog and then my life in general.

Although, I will continue to keep this blog primarily about me, I think it's time I changed the tone a bit. I have lots of small successes that only I care about- so out to the universe they go. This bragging will hopefully boost my mood and esteem.

I'm not only a wife, mother and novice friend. I have a wide interest in arts and crafts, among other things. I know it's not new, I'm sure plenty of regular folk blog their hobbies, but the blogs I've seen so far are from people who profit from their work. (I told you I was new to the world of blogging, not just writing one but searching/reading them as well). I'd see them and think "Wow, that's great! I could try that! (But I'd never be good at it and even if I could, I'm not making a profession out of it so I don't have the time or money to devote to practicing)" This morning Bakerella inspired me to think about posting the projects I make. Here's the conversation I had in my head - at least I think it was in my head ;)
"I could post the projects I'm doing. (That means I'll actually have to finish one first) Why don't I finish things? I don't feel finished. Is that why? Do I not finish stuff because I don't feel finished or do I not feel finished because I don't finish things? Am I disorganized because I feel that way or vice versa? Am I lazy because I'm tired or am I tired because I'm lazy? Am I skinny-fat because I don't feel pretty or..." You get the idea.

In the category of unfinished projects, I bought a kinda nice, spiral bound, divided journal a few weeks ago. In the first section, I'm going to write one thing a day that I'm grateful for. In the next section, I'm going to write one thing that I want to change that I am responsible for (i.e. eat more healthfully) and in the last section, I'm going to write things that I want to see change that I don't have full, or any, control over (i.e. I wish my husband would eat more healthfully). Of course, one of the reasons I haven't started yet is that I don't want to start until I have an exact plan. It is on paper written with a pen! I can't go back, gracefully, and fix my mistakes! So here is my first pseudo entry:
1. I'm thankful I have the brain power to remember that I once thought of keeping a journal when I saw a bargain.
2. I will make a table of contents for journal
3. My "section 3" entries will come to fruition