Why is it that I am able to keep a positive spin on things when they are happening to other people? If I was in their same situation I'd think or feel similarly. I met with 2 friends today that I'd really like to know better (yay). One was worried if a single witnessed event was a pattern for her sister when she is alone. I was able to think of a few different reasons why that may have happened, but if I was really worried about my sister I probably wouldn't be able to do that. The other said she had an irrational fear when she was a child and I was able to think of a plausible reason why it might not be. In my experience, when I believe my feelings are irrational, I feel more out of control in general. And I feel guilty for having that feeling in the first place. I have no delusions of being a psycho-anaylist, but I hope even that seed helped. I have a big fear, I actually hope it's irrational. I can't even talk about it to anyone other than my husband. It would be nice if someone said "No, this detail of your life makes it not so likely to happen."
If I was able to achieve this separation from my problems would I be able to handle them better? Able to solve them? My issues, I think, are normal: stress, marriage, household, children, money, health. I'm not so self absorbed to think I have a terrible life, nor am I still afraid that I'm the only one who feels this way. I still feel these things and I still feel guilty for feeling them. C'est la vie?
